Thursday, July 26, 2012

My BRF

This little guy is my BRF and the reason I am striving to become a better person. I want the parent I am to rub off on the man he becomes! He is my little joy! 
My BFE
BRF: Best Running Friend

Hi there! My name is Cassey and I am so excited for this blog. I am also a co-writer with my sister over at Natural-NesterS. We write about so many different, amazing things... you should totally check us out and see what is happening over there with us. We also do some pretty great Giveaways-- just closed our Giveaway on Coconut Oil. I am starting this blog to keep up with my running and to encourage those that feel a little discouraged. I will have occasional Guest Posts from people that have encouraged me along the way. First I would like to share a little bit of my story:

I grew up as an active girl. I always played softball and we were always playing outside. Out of the three of us- my brother, me, and my sister... I would say I was the LEAST active and also the LEAST coordinated. I like to blame that part on my lack of activity. HAHA! I played softball until the end of my freshman year... then I quit. HUGE mistake. I wasn't as good of a player as I imagined and I was not part of "the group" because I was not in athletics... so I honestly never played. Quitting that sport... the one I had played for many, many years... was only the beginning of a huge freeze on having an active lifestyle.

I gained weight of course because I was not active and well..quite frankly, I loved food. When I went to college, in 2001, I put on even MORE weight. I would always try and go work out-- but that never lasted longer than three days at a time, sadly. I survived off of Ramen Noodles and KFC Mashed Potatoes and Gravy. Many a night I would quickly stuff myself with a couple of bags of Ramen Noodles while the roommate was away... and let's not forget the sour cream that I mixed in to make it creamier. I wish I knew then what I know now.But it seemed like a lost cause anyways, so I may as well just enjoy the food.

I wasn't happy. I tried to pretend, but I wasn't. I was always the FAT girl and it.. sucked. I got married after two years of college to the boy I had been with since I was 16, the only boy I dated. I married him at the ripe weight of AT LEAST 230. Back then I didn't weigh myself. The wedding pictures are a complete BUST! I prefer to keep them hidden deep in a cabinet. We moved to Mississippi for our first duty station and I was able to finish school. I worked and went to school and continued to gain or remain the same. My weight always bothered my husband, and like college, I would try for a few days and stop. I would sneak food that to this day embarrasses me when I think of it. I was on a constant "weight" roller coaster.

I graduated with my Bachelors in 2007. I was to become a teacher. Something came over me at this time and I knew I did not want to be the fat teacher. I wanted to wear cute clothes.. I wanted to be happy.. I WANTED to feel beautiful. I interviewed for my first job and got it that March. When I went back for our first day in August, the principal didn't even recognize me because I had lost so much weight. My starting weight at that point was 225. During the next six months I lost enough weight to make me the happy teacher who dressed in cute clothes. I finally weighed less than 200. Matter of fact, my lowest weight was 148. But I was always battling it.

During this time I began running. A friend asked me to run a Half-Marathon with her. That thought had NEVER crossed my mind. She asked me in October of 2007. I wasn't a fast runner.. only a couple of miles on the treadmill here and there. My first response was "uh, no!" But the more I thought about it- the more exciting it became. Even as I ran my weight fluctuated between 155-165. But we did run. We ran almost daily prepping for that half. In March of 2008 we headed to Little Rock, Arkansas for our very first (and last) 1/2 Marathon. It was AMAZING!!! One of the best experiences of my life. My girlfriend said she could mark it off of her bucket list now.. I said it was off mine too.. because it was never on it! (For the record, I have the itch again and will be doing a 1/2 in October and in Feb). During the beginning of 2008, I ran two 10Ks, two 5Ks, and one 1/2 Marathon. These runs all changed me.

July of 2008 we moved to Japan. The day I left for Japan I weighed 165. For the next six months I was still dedicated to the gym. Many times I would go twice a day... my weight still stayed in the 160s.. In January of 2009, my husband deployed (again) and I became a little relaxed on my gym time. I enjoyed hanging with my girlfriends, the Japanese food, and working.. teaching 6th graders. I still felt like a cute enough teacher. I was unhappy with myself and yet comfortable at the same time. When my husband returned in June 2009, I was weighing between 168-172. Notice the slight gain since being in Mississippi. I was the most happy at 155... so seeing the 170s again broke my heart. Mom and Sister spent a month with us in Japan. After they left we headed to Tokyo to climb Mt. Fuji. WHAT AN AMAZING experience. I am so thankful we did that. I found out upon our arrival home that I was PREGNANT. I had gotten sick on the bus ride home.... but would have never guessed it. After 7 years of marriage we would have a baby!

And then it began. At first I did good... And then.. well you know how that goes. I gained a significant amount of weight with my boy and you certainly did NOT find me in the gym. I was enjoying life. Breastfeeding makes it fall off, right? UH..NOT for me! The day I found out I was pregnant I weighed in at 173. Eight days after having my boy, I weighed in at 178. Not TOO bad, I suppose. This is where the issue begins.... nothing inside of me stopped eating like I did when I was pregnant and you still did not find me in the gym. Working full time I felt guilty going to the gym without him and taking him along was a nightmare... These are simple excuses- but the guilt was real. So I live the next year and a half in Japan.. going through some of the hardest times of my life: losing my brother in December of 2009, losing one of my best friends, and moving away from this family I created in Japan. And.. well I ate. I ate well. And then.. Well, I would eat some more. I was sneaky.. and I was good.

Good enough to put me at our next duty station in California in July 2011 weighing at over 200lbs. I was out of control- AGAIN! When would it end? When would I find that passion for fitness again? For healthy eating? I tried.. but it never lasted. In December of 2011, I joined a gym. It was a good thing for me.. because it gave me some ME time. But I still didn't lose weight. In March of 2012, I got serious again. My boy had just turned 2 and I knew it was time. It was time to bring me back!

So... in March I weighed in at 210. Today I weighed in at 174. (Still up from the 168 I saw a couple of months ago). In March I started running again... In May I let my gym membership go because I love running outside with my boy. I want to put weight training into my workouts, but I just haven't yet. But I run... Oh I run. I love to run. My boy loves to run. And... I am SO addicted. But this time, not to food. I am addicted to races. I set a goal for myself in May to do 4 races (5Ks) before the end of the year... Today, July 26, I have already completed those four.

My son and I did our first 5K on Memorial Day, May 28th... and since then I have done a July 4th 5K, a Color Run 5K, and a 5K Mud Run. I LOVE IT. He LOVES IT. I am becoming a better ME and in return raising a better HIM! I love it.

My best friend from Japan moved back to the states. About a month ago she mentioned that I should come to Florida and do the Disney Princess 1/2 Marathon in February with her. NEGATIVE! I have checked that off of the list it was never on.. and am not interested. Riiiight! As I have kept running... it has been so much a part of my thoughts. Two weeks ago we booked our tickets, got our hotel, and purchased the 1/2 Marathon ticket. I am stoked. I am loving this new life... and am so truly happy.
I want so bad to inspire others... and to get others to run with me. I know what it feels like to only be able to barely run one minute or not feel like your hips or feet can go. I promise, I have been there. I hope to make a difference in peoples lives... and I hope this blog can help me reach out and help others... and learn from you.
Planned Races: AUGUST
  • Color Run (again, discounted price)
  • Moonlight 10K (Pray for Me), and my boys first race
  • Mud Run (with a girlfriend, yay)
SEPTEMBER
  • Labor Day 10K and my boys 2nd race
  • Foam Fest 5K
  • 10K
  • 5K
OCTOBER
  • 1/2 Marathon (with a friend, yay)
Thanks for reading.. Please leave a comment! I love to read them and will respond back at ya!
P.S. Who is your BRF???

1 comment:

  1. I just found your blog off of SPA and would like to follow you. You seem like someone I want to get to know cus we have the same likes and interests. I seen a post of your 11 questions and I would like to partake in answering them even though I wasn't tagged, that is if you want my answers?? it's all good. I have a blog too and I just started it so it's plain, but I hope to get it looking nice like your's soon. Feel free to visit my blog at coachangie.wordpress.com Thanks and you can find me at Face Book at angie gutierrez and let me know if you want my answers to those questions. I won't fel bad if you don't I understand. Oh and can I borrow those questions for my blog? I am so new to blogging I don't understand how it works other than I write what I think or feel at the time. Thanks for your help and understanding in advance :)

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